Had enough!!

Truth is, enough is not enough.
The craving for more and more would eventually never reach its peak, trough would never meet its peak ever. These are probably the two opposite forces that would never make things happen the way that we call normal.

Lets talk about the day, it started with not enough sleep causing enough tension resulting enough conversation leading to "had enough"....

Silly isnt it, but truth of the matter is something which is so lucid that even it cannot be hold, it slips away.

Starting again this blog of my mind after a long time seem to be working well till now but for a change let me not blog this for others. Nobody would understand the inch and centemeter of this. The system has gone through a damage and this is a damage control activity. This is just throwing up the mind to write something in english and if it makes any sense to me good else who cares.

I really do not want to drop a hint as to why I am writing this post after such a long gap of blogging but certainly I am in some degree of not having a usual day. Probably I am trying find something which is de-stressful!!

Extinguishing my darkness

I always wanted to spell out my darkness, its always confusing and always drags me off from the proper set of letters and conquer the spelling. So I tried to get some help from this guy called “Dictionary” and always tried to bi-heart the spelling, never worked. Darkness cant be spelled, so I went ahead to “Thesaurus” to find some “Synonyms”, those so called near to the meaning of the proper meaning of the darkness are useful and easy to remember but then again if I ask myself, I never get satisfied with them. I want to spell “Darkness” as is. And every time I get confused. So I took it in a different understanding, negative-negative equals positive. What would supersede darkness, what darkness would fear and what “Darkness” would want to spell that “Darkness” can’t spell out? Its like venom as a cure of venom, I call it Extinguishing my darkness!!

Moody Mood, what rules is a sixstring-drum-bass rhythm

That chord is an October afternoon!! and here slash slashes that misunderstanding. After dark mood turns pink and understands life. If life isn't mine, set the control for the heart of the sun. A heavy distortion eases distorted thoughts and helps a blind man cry. "Who" says "I can't explain" its all a hard work for a rock an roll star to get to the top. Sometime electricity plays a prank and then a couple of batters turns AC/to/DC.

Mood goes along and nails a memory sticky with every rhythm and every new drum-roll rolls on a new rolling stone for a no-moss. Rhythm took all of it when dark side of the moon is bright or the reverse of it. Why take a chill pill when a 30 second prelude can bring back a green day.

A bit of being naughty is not always a bad idea when the time isn't so bad. Grabbed all I could at the time and really moved the cheese at the right time. Then and now all I have is a special cheese for a special occasion.

Just (U)tube a cheese and moody mood is all mine ...

Back to Square One

Hola!! durgapuja, dashami and back to square one... battling my way to the railway station to catch a train.. a missed timing would have burnt me alive. But it seems a lot of oxygen is still due to get inside my nostrils yet.

Life's exciting all the time, a "missed" picture of the bramhaputra river have been captured this time and would be cherished and would help some more people who think they had their best time couple of years back (for me its going to be a decade though!!).

Budding new faces on the broken streets, eye-catching and ... but again back to square one...

Same old same old, but a sense of new all around, a moderate servicing is done to the mind and it should last for sometime at least... catching up with people wasn't really a good experience this time around but that's ok, im always happy-myself and then back to square one.

Learning to Fly

How I grown up and saw 26 calendar flipping in front of my eyes, just trying to hold myself and see how much I have learned to Fly!!

Last 26 years have been so exciting and dull at the same time. Life had been a salad so far...
some sweet apple, some sour lemon, some fresh lettuce, some creamy cream, a little bit of salt and pepper .. all tossed up!!

Now if I am to start to garnish up this life-salad, how would I want to do it? Well, not a simple task though.

I learned to crawl, learned to balance my body in those days I was learning to walk. So many watched and cherished those moments while I was trying to stand-up on my feet. But inside me there was a little bird trying to fly, my wings might have started to grow but didn't understand how to fly, so I learned to walk...

walk .. run .... hide... sometime make people run... but never learned how to fly

Why ?

Did you ever look back and asked "why"?

I am trying to ask myself too many questions, "Why" I am the way I am, "Why" should I remain what I am, "Why" this blogging and "Why" are you reading it?

I don't have answers, infact "Why" should I even have an answer?

Then "Why" I reached this line if I don't have an answer or "Why" should I even stop myself in the provious paragraph?

Confusing....
There are so many "Why's" around my neck but still I am what I am and I would remain what I am. Most of the things surrounding us changes everyday but we remain the same we were 10 years ago. Sad but truth!!

Then is this a problem, I don't think so. Probably Roger Waters (Pink Floyd's song writer) had in mind this same "Why" while he was composing his famous song "momentary lapse of reason".

Would you agree, or "Why" would you agree??

Only love is real

Love me for a reason .. let the reason be love,

No matter what I say, I want to be loved. I just want to open my heart to love and to be-loved.

But who will love me, how much that love would be, how much to love back, or how real or fake that love be, shall I think about love daily or weekly or monthly or hourly, all these makes it complicated.

I want to feel the love that comes naturally, I dont want to search for love, I just want to imagine that I am in love.

Because only love is real .. not who loves me!!

Keep Blogging !!

For millions of years mankind lived just like the animals
Then something happenend which unleashed the power of our imagination
We learned to Blog

There's a silence surrounding me
I can't seem to think straight
I'll sit in the corner
No one will bother me
I think I should Blog now
I can't seem to Blog now
My words won't come out right
I feel like I'm drowning
I'm feeling weak now
But I can't show my weakness
I sometimes wonder
Where do we go from here

It doesn't have to be like this
All we need to do is make sure we keep Blogging

Happy being worried

When going gets tough .... tough gets going ...

Lets start this day with a battle hymn, a battle of worries. Lets come victorious, let your 600 charge-brigade march ahead. Let your worries get gulped by your happiness. Lets have a reverse-engineering and find the point where the tear-ice melts to water, let it return to innocense.

Lets convience your worries to smile for you, lets not see through the stained-glass specticles, lets see with your eyes wide open.

Lets get happy being worried